Never say Never

If I have learned anything from this past week, it is “Never say never.” Because, usually it’s going to happen, or happen again. And sometimes, you just have to let it happen. I was dead set on not liking anyone…and then I met Alex. And then I was convinced that it wasn’t going to keep being great. Well, so far, I’m wrong about that, too. I promised myself I’d never trust another guy. Well, promises are meant to be broken. And all thanks to this handsome guy named Alex that just so happened to fall into my life. I haven’t hit the ground yet. And when I do hit the ground, I’m not sure if I’ll be running or trying to get back on cloud nine. I guess you never know with me.




Momma asked what it was like seeing a guy 5 times in one week. I hadn’t realized I had seen him that often. It’s gotten to where one day feels like forever, and so if I am able to see Alex, I go. If he is able to see me, he comes. It’s interesting and glorious to have a guy who is willing to drive to middle of no WEIR just to see me. Alex is delusional. See, he thinks I’m all these great things. That’s another difference I’m going to have to get used to. I don’t have to prove myself to this…insane, down to earth, caring, incredible guy. He wants ME. And I still can’t figure out why. But hey, I’m down with it. I may not understand it, but I’m totally fine with this going on for as long as it will.



Here’s a picture of us goofing off today. Hopefully there will be many more pictures and nights like tonight.

Love always,

Chelsea Leann

The First of Many

Well, they say you forgive a little at a time. One foot in front of the other. Without motivation, we just trudge along, with all our troubles in an old kit bag, dragging it with us.

But what if there was something or someone that made us want to run, sprint, fly towards that finish line of forgiving others of past minstakes, forgiving ourselves for our insecuirities and eccentricities? Wouldn't you take it? Shouldn't you?

Or should you continue to punish yourself?



Today started off as awful. Early morning, carless, work, yucky short lunch, arguments with the post office, UPS, and Barnes and Noble over the delivery of my nook....some things just shouldn't happen in one day. I admit, I was mostly anxious for five o'clock. When you have something amazing waiting for you and you can't see it until then, it makes the hours tick past slowly. What was this amazing something? Oh...just my first official date with Alex.

Three things I adore about Alex:
1) He manages to be honest, funny, and sweet all in one sentence.
2) He likes me for me..theres no freaking out half the time because my hair isn't perfect or my makeup isn't flawless.
3) This may be shallow, but he's got the most beautiful blue eyes that take my breathe away You guys know I'm a sucker for eyes, but this guy has something special.

We went to Applebees and then hung out with some of his friends. Imagine my clutsy self meeting strangers, trying to think of something to say, but ending up sitting awkwardly on the edge of the couch, trying to figure out how to be involved without actually opening my mouth or moving. The life of Chelsea Leann is a hazardous one with there are nerves....and of course, there are always nerves. I can go head first, straight into something but that doesn't mean I'm not having a nervous breakdown inside. All I can say is, I cannotwait to meet the rest of his friends, because he's a little more relaxed around them.

I'm sitting at home right now, supposedly studying, but have my head in the clouds. It's been so long since I went on a date that I didn't have to beg for, push and pull. It was so genuine- and that's going to be the easiest to get used to, all the while, the hardest to trust in. I know, I'm so paranoid.

But I decied consciously what I guess I subconciously decided when I met Alex. I won't let anything hold me back from trying and being myself. Because this guy makes me happy, and I deserve to be happy, dang it.

Ok, enough gushing about my crazy life. It's bed time. Two tests tomorrow. There will probably be a rant about the stupidity of octagons tomorrow. Just saying.

Au Revoir!
Chelsea Leann

*Summer*

Updates, Updates, Updates.

Jackie quit on me. So no more two week vacations to spend sleeping late, traveling to random places, and being totally lazy.

I hate Geometry. The teacher is crazy, and I have no idea what she wants. I only have a final left, and, pray for me-I need to pass to pass the class.

It's HOT outside. Welcome to Mississippi? I wish I were on a beach, getting a tan, and kicking up the water like a little kid. No more sea shell collecting though. I have about 100 from my early expedition.

Vacation was great, but I was ready to be home. But now that I'm home, I'd dearly love to be away. Maybe I'll make a trip to Destin or Orange Beach again soon. Rebekah wants me to come to South Carolina, but the parents aren't that big on me driving that far. I can't really blame them, as I can't drive in Jackson.

I finally brought Lil' Boy Blue home and road him on the highway. VICTORY! Only to find out my front break pads were worn. Fail. But, I'm still cool because I can ride a motorcycle.

I've been hanging around Kosciusko a lot lately. There's this awesome guy that lives there that makes me laugh and smile, and have hope. I think, my dear nonexistent readers, that the days and nights of Chelsea Leann are looking up indeed.

Until next time, whenever that may be....
Chelsea Leann